Ragnell wrote:So when Jade brought Laura to mind... he wasn't healed enough. When he drank the coffee, he wasn't healed enough to go all the way. When TOAM told him to WAKE UP, he still wasn't healed enough to do more than follow his intuition on the paper. When he ate the cherry pie and heard the piano notes, he was still not yet healed enough emotionally to take his destiny in his own hands. He had started making minor decisions, big steps along the way with the miniscule ones he was taking every day, learning to exercise his will like a muscle he'd severely injured, but he wasn't healed enough to actually reclaim his identity and agency.
He needed enough faith, trust and love and time to recuperate before he made that slow crawl to the outlet, and held his fork there for long enough despite the pain of electric shock. That took willpower, and it took time to build it.
That's pretty interesting. Thanks for explaining. Was this evident for you all along, or was the awakening an aha moment which brought it home?